Sweet

Sweet Breeze

Granted graciously,

requested recurrently,

swinging back and forth between two;

sweet breeze brushing past.

Stiffness setting in when solo,

strained movement stutters to stagnation,

reduced to standstill.

Underdog!  Underdog!

Desperate cries futile,

bouncing off deaf ears, non-existent arms.

Alone; yourself your sole stimulus,

a heave required from deep,

not succumbing to debilitating rust;

self-administering TLC,

oiling wrong, warming bad,

invigoration for what’s coming.

Strength recovered, push prescribed,

catapulting sweet breeze into action.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

– Shaniqua Marie

My Top 5 Cereals

Today, I’ve completely flipped the switch from yesterday’s Top 5 Basketball Babes to my Top 5 cereals.  Cereal is one of my favourite things to eat for breakfast and it’s usually my go-to for breakfasts on a weekday.  Get ready for my Top 5.

 

5. Crunchy Nut Nutty

I’m not sure if this cereal is even called Crunchy Nut Nutty anymore, because I think I remember them changing the name, but this is what I will always refer to it as.  I love me some Crunchy Nut Nutty, because of the flaked almonds and those clusters of caramelised nuts that taste so good.  Thinking about it makes me want some right now.Crunchy Nut Nutty

4. Froot Loops

I love me some Froot Loops and it’s frustrating me that I can’t find them in Tesco right now.  I like the sweet, kind of fruity taste, but I have to admit that I prefer the American ones, which are a little sweeter with a greater variety of colours.  The American ones are smaller too, which I think makes them look better.Froot Loops

3. Peanut Butter Cap’n Crunch

I had these for the first time when I was in Alabama this year and I was so excited, because I’ve wanted to try them ever since I saw them mentioned in the movie, Step Up.  And I tell you, they did not disappoint, with their great peanut butter taste.  I really wish that it was sold here in the UK.Peanut Butter Cap'n Crunch

2. Coco Pops

Coco Pops has been my favourite cereal since I was child, but this year a cereal has come along and stopped it from coming in at number 1.  I love the chocolatey taste of Coco Pops and that it turns the milk brown with all of its chocolatey goodness. This is a cereal that I will love forever and ever, especially with coconut or hazelnut milk.Coco Pops

1. Reese’s Puffs

Just like Peanut Butter Cap’n Crunch, I had Reese’s Puffs for the first time this year and it was like love at first bite.  I looked forward to having this cereal everyday when I was in Alabama and it’s frustrating that it costs so much in the UK, so now it’s only a special treat.  I’m crazy about this cereal, because it has the perfect mix of a chocolatey goodness and a great peanut butter taste.  No other cereal could be my number 1.Reese's Puffs

As you can tell, I’m not very healthy when it comes to my love of cereals, but I can’t help it.  They taste so good.  What is your favourite cereal?

The Real Shaniqua

I’m sure that a lot of people in my life would say that they know me, but I’m also sure that the majority of them have got that wrong.  I mean no disrespect when I make that statement, but it is the honest truth.

Yes, they know the happy Shaniqua; the jovial, bubbly, lively, sweet, friendly, outgoing, funny Shaniqua who “always has a smile on her face”.  I’ll admit that is the Shaniqua I am most of the time and that is the Shaniqua who is present on the surface, but it is also the Shaniqua that I allow them to see.

I wear the “happy” mask to keep the questions at bay and hide away from everything I am struggling with inside.  I wear the mask to put up barriers between them and me, because I don’t want to let people in.  I wear the mask because it’s easier.

The mask I wear hides the ugly and for people to really know me, you have to see the ugly.  I’ve had people run away when they’ve seen that I’m a little fragile and damaged, and there are numerous individuals who have been surprised by one of my moody outbursts on one of my dark days.

You don’t know the real me until you see me depressed and down.  You don’t know the real me until you hear me talk about my feelings of despair and unhappiness.  You don’t know the real me until you see me break down in tears.

You don’t know me until you get a look at the scars that border my arms.  You don’t know me until you learn about my trust issues.  You don’t know me until you know about my feelings of isolation and loneliness.  You don’t know me until you hear about my low confidence and self-esteem.

You won’t know the real me, until you see the back of me, turning around and walking away, because I can’t take it anymore and I need the space to be alone.

The real Shaniqua is not all joy and light, but I am also filled with darkness, pain and wells of emotion that I cannot always express.  This is who I am and I want people to understand that there is more to me than what they simply see on the surface.

I’m not going to be that sweet girl they see all the time and there are times when my broken side will reveal itself, because sometimes the mask falls off or it becomes so constrictive that I need to remove it.  All of this is what makes me the real Shaniqua.