Lovely

They Taught Me More Than They’ll Ever Know

I couldn’t write about the people who played a special part in my 2018 without writing about Queen’s Gardens.  I spent a significant portion of my time in Queen’s over spring and summer, bringing me into contact with a number of people who I continue to love, in spite of what may have passed between some of us.

Queen’s is one of the strangest and most interesting places in Croydon, because of the mixture of characters you will find there, and also because of what takes place there.  It is kind of like a bubble, a community within a community, which you come to realise the deeper you ingratiate yourself with the people there.  I learnt a lot – good, bad and useful – which I will definitely be taking forward in my life.

I’ve developed relationships with some beautiful people, who I happily speak to and spend time with whenever I see them.  Due to some of their lifestyles, I won’t be using their “government” names or naming them at all.  If they were to read this, I’d hope they know who they are though.

I’ve known my Jamesy-James for a couple of years now, and he’s always been someone I find easy to talk to, although I can’t put my finger on why.  I guess he’s a great listener, and is definitely an all round lovely person.  I’m always excited to see him.  I’ve known and been friends with Gamma for a couple of years too, but I got to know him a lot more this year.  Gamma always finds a way to make me laugh, and I’ll never forget when he had me cracking up when we were hanging out in the summer one time.  I also love that he calls me ‘Poetry Queen’ – just saying.

Win is a really, really lovely human being.  He’s easy to get on with, easy to talk to and easy to be around.  We got on immediately, from the moment we met in summer.  After not seeing him for a few months, it was nice to bump into him randomly, spend some time chatting on a walk and then go to Kaspas.  Whenever I’m with him, I know I’ll always be looked after and treated right.  And you’ve got Frankie, who I first met in spring, but quickly warmed up to and also got on well with – he looks out for me too.

I saw more of a beautiful lady I met last year, who is always warm and quick to greet me.  When I ask her how she is, I love the response she gives, which is such a mouthful that I cannot remember it all.  I also met a young woman this year, who I found sweet, despite being very rough around the edges.  She is always quick to greet me too and ready for a little conversation.

After meeting him at the soup kitchen the church I attend puts on, I came to see more of this ball of energy at Queen’s during the summer months – let’s call him My Darlin.  Like I mentioned, My Darlin is a ball of energy, talking quickly, walking quickly and often on the move.  He is truly lovely, with a heart of gold and caring nature.  He’s always got a story to tell too, which can often be amusing.

There are so many others I could mention, including a kind-hearted sweetie who made me feel like family, and a group of Eritreans, including a beauty who brings me joy with his beautiful, bright smile and shining eyes.  However, I came to spend quite a lot of my time with a particular group, who will always have a place in my heart (some of them have a special place).  No matter what has gone down with them, I want the best for all of them and I will always keep them in my prayers.  I don’t think they realise the impact they have had on my life and how much I have learnt from them.

Through one member of this group, I came to meet a genuine, down-to-earth, lovely person, who is studying youth work (I think he’s going to be a great youth worker), and I could have proper conversations with.  I have time for him any day.

However, it was the one who introduced us that has probably had one of the largest impacts on me this year – we’ll call him my Knight (in Shining Armour).  Out of everyone from Queen’s, I think I ended up spending the most amount of time with my Knight.  I initially met him last year, but we didn’t really speak, which all changed this spring.  Somehow, we began to talk more and more, as we became properly comfortable with each other.  The conversation flowed and we got to know each other better, which was made easier by his raw honesty.

Like people I tend to get on with best, he made me laugh, although sometimes he would joke around too much.  He looked out for me, like many of the people in Queen’s would do, but he went above and beyond in some ways by being very protective – not in a creepy way though.  However, what I think most stands out about my Knight is the sense of calm he would bring me, especially when I would get stressy over the actions of certain individuals – it was funny how much he would come up with sensible things my sister would probably say.  He’s got a really good heart as well.

As strange as Queen’s can be, meeting people from there has made me a better, more resilient person and more streetwise person.  I don’t think they even realise how much I love all of them.

A Lovely Sabbath and A Great God

The first Sabbath of 2015 came to an end a few hours ago, and I can sit back and say that it was a really lovely day.  I was blessed by the service and I enjoyed the fellowship with the church family that I love so much.  Seeing faces that I hadn’t seen in a long time was definitely a highlight for me.

It was funny, because I’ve been struggling recently and trying to get my motivation back, but it was like going to church seemed to revitalise me.  I felt happier, fresher and ready to go this year.  The people around me believe in me and being in God’s house just seemed to remind me that I can go out and do what I need to do.

I love going to church and I love the Sabbath day.  My beliefs find a way to bring me joy and I intend to take my relationship with God even further this year.

I have wanted to get baptised for over a year now and I started Bible study in 2014, in order to get prepared for baptism.  However, there is something that just keeps holding me back.  I am hoping that I can figure this out and move forward, because I want to stop delaying and give my life fully to Christ.

I also want to spend more time in regular conversation with God, because He always finds a way to get through to me and it is important for me to hear His voice.  Speaking to Him did so much for me not only last year, but in the previous years of my life.

My relationship with God means the world to me and putting Him first makes the things in my life fall into place.  It is not always an easy road, but I know that He has great things in store for me and that He will reward me for staying faithful.

My God is the only person that has got me through many of the dark periods of my life and I know that He will get me through this year, because it is going to involve a lot of hard graft.  When I’m weak, that’s when He is strong, and as long as I trust Him, I know that He will come through for me.

A Lovely Heart Beneath a Rough Exterior

As it was her birthday yesterday, I think that it is only right to dedicate this post to my best friend.  I have written about my best friend a number of times, but it doesn’t hurt to write about her again.

Funnily enough, just like the two individuals I have written about previously, our relationship had a rocky start.  There were a number of occasions when we did not see eye to eye and there was a time when I never thought that we could be friends again, but things change and people change.

Like I will tell anyone, my best friend is not the nicest of people, but she has come incredibly far over the years.  I have seen her grow more than anyone I know and underneath the rough exterior, she has a lovely heart.  Not everyone gets to see it, but she has one of the most amazing personalities.

I will never stop saying that she is fiercely loyal and she knows just how to have me in fits of laughter.  Everytime we meet up is hilarious and boy talk with her is always entertaining.  She has the most interesting opinions and unique view on the world.

Although the two of us are very different people, there is no one I would rather call my best friend and you know what, there is no one else that I can imagine being my best friend.  In spite of our initial hardships, I feel like I have been blessed with a friend like her in my life and I know that she will stay in my life forever.  She will be a bridesmaid at her wedding and she has made it clear that I will be the godmother of her child.

I’ve said it before and I will say it again, anyone would be lucky to have a best friend like mine.  Words cannot express how much I love her.