I Promise

“I promise.”

I hate that phrase.  I despise it, because about 95% of the time, it is pointless, flung out of the mouth of another person probably without them thinking.  In fact, I hate when anyone promises me anything, because it is usually a lie or yet more empty words.

Lies and empty words seem to be points that I am continuously coming back to these days, but unfortunately they are far too common and regularly uttered by individuals.  Why is it so hard to genuinely mean what you say?

Words should measure up with your actions, except that often isn’t the case anymore and I don’t understand why.  It frustrates me, because the words shouldn’t leave your mind if you didn’t mean them in the first place.  I guess it’s my fault though for having some sort of expectation – you shouldn’t expect anything from anyone.  Most have the tendency to let you down.

However, nothing angers me more than people throwing around the word promise and not following through with what they “promised” to do or suddenly switching up on you.  People are way too inconsistent, especially males, and I am freaking tired of it.  Just be who you are, follow through on your words and stop switching up your personality.  I honestly don’t know what to think of some individuals anymore, and I hate that, because then I don’t know how to act around them.

The only promises I can truly trust and believe in are God’s promises, because I know His words are truth.  My God has never switched up on me and I know he never, ever will.  His promises are the only ones that matter and the only ones I can take seriously, because His words have never been empty.


Breaking My Heart

The way you no longer care about me is breaking my heart.

We were supposed to be friends, we were supposed to be close, we were supposed to have a genuine connection.

When I first met you, we instantly clicked and for me, that doesn’t happen with many people.  We got on great from the start, we were comfortable around each other and we could talk like we’d been friends for ages.  In spite of the age difference, I thought this is someone that I can definitely have a close friendship with.

And a close friend is what you became as we spent more time together.  I actually found myself being able to confide in someone else, after the decline of two of my closest friendships.  You were one of the few people who I confided in and let into my heart, but I won’t be making that mistake again.

You don’t check up on me, you don’t take any notice of me and it’s like you have little interest in talking to me.  You don’t miss me anymore, you no longer want to see me and you are making no effort to meet up.  It feels like you are constantly lying or that the kind words you spoke were lies in the first place.

I just don’t know why you felt the need to say those amazing, sweet things, because I did not ask to hear them and I would feel a lot better if I had never heard them.  I simply don’t understand how you could seem to care so much and truly value me in your life, but then drop me and stop caring at the drop of a hat.  I’m wondering if our friendship ever meant anything to you at all.

You’ve left me heartbroken and that is causing me so much pain, so I am leaving you behind and cutting you out, because I cannot take anymore.  You don’t have to worry, as I’m done trying and I’ve closed the door on you.  I will never stop caring about you or loving you, but I have to do this for me, because you are breaking my heart.


I don’t understand how some individuals can lie so easily; it’s like it comes naturally to them.  Sometimes they do it just to cover their back and with others, the lies simply fly out of their mouths like second nature.

I don’t like when people lie to me and I find that people do it far too often, which I think is where a lot of my trust issues arose from.  Sometimes the truth hurts, but I would rather have someone tell me a hurtful truth than lie to me to cover it up.  I feel that their attempt to cover up is a way of making them feel better rather than me, as I feel a whole lot worse when I find out that I have been lied to.

But what I really can’t stand is when people in authority or in power tell lies.  These lies are usually told so that they can get their own way, cover up their mistakes or to manipulate others.  These individuals can get away with these lies so often and it makes me sick, because they have a huge effect on people’s lives.

There are also numerous compulsive liars, who do not know where the truth ends and their lies begin.  Sometimes these individuals are telling blatant lies, which others can see right through, but they continue to protest that they are telling the truth.  It is as if they lie so much that they eventually start believing the lies themselves.

Although I have told some lies in the past, I really dislike telling lies and I don’t want to tell any lies in the present or future.  I’d rather tell the truth and I don’t see not telling someone certain pieces of information as a lie.

I think that telling far less lies would solve and prevent quite a few problems, as it is an improvement in communication.  There needs to be a lot more truth in this world.