Difficult

Constant Reassurance

It can be difficult trying to get through this life sometimes, with the constant pressures put on you by yourself and others.  You find yourself striving to move forward or trying your hardest to get things done, so you can reach those elusive goals.

Sometimes this can all get too much and your head starts to get overwhelmed, as you find yourself rushing from place to place and task to task.  You barely give yourself a chance to breathe or your mind a chance to rest, and it can be draining.

However, taking some time out with my God always manages to calm me down.  It is the best method of reassurance and relaxation, as I spend time talking to Him, meditating on His word, praising Him in song or just listening to what He has to say.

Yesterday, I decided to take a longer route to the bus stop on my way home, as I felt like a leisurely walk on my own, and I am so glad I did it.  For the first time in a little while, I was casually walking just for the sake of it, rather than pacing in a bid to get home or reach my destination.

During my walk, God came into my mind and I just started having a conversation with Him.  I felt at ease and really happy in that moment, which was exactly what I needed to settle my spirit.  That little bit of time spent with my God just made me feel that everything was going to be okay, which is why time spent with Him is so special.

I’m glad that I have my God on my side, supporting me every step of the way.  It also makes me feel good to know that He will be a constant reassurance, which is important for someone as easily stressed as me.  With Him, everything will work out fine.

Missing You

Sometimes I miss you.  In fact, I miss the two of you.  I miss the friendships we once had and I miss how close we used to be.

It can be difficult at times, because you two were the friends that were closest to me and I could talk to you about anything.  You supported me during difficult times, made me laugh continuously and were there to talk when I needed it.

One of you could always put a smile on my face and knew just what to say to me at the right times.  The other would always put me in my place and think about my actions, which helped me to become a more considerate person.  And I could never stay angry at either of you.

Although you are still in my life, our relationships are not the same and that can be difficult at times, because I don’t know who else to turn to.  The other people in my life don’t always understand where I’m coming from or they don’t know as much as the two of you, which can make explanations long and difficult.

I let both of you in when I struggle to let others in, and I have not been able to let anyone in that way since.  That can make it difficult when I need to turn to a friend who knows and understands me deeply, because the two of you aren’t there.

I just miss you and sometimes I wish things could go back to the way they were, but I understand that it’s not meant to be.

Staying Patient and Faithful

In a world full of evil, pain and deception, when bad things are constantly happening to us, it can be very difficult to trust in God and believe that He we will come through for us.

I find myself struggling, despite how hard I try, and it seems that I’m never going to catch a break.  This week these frustrations flared up again and I found it hard to believe that everything would work out alright.  Like many times before, my faith waned.

However, God was again able to reassure me and He helped me to reconsider what it is that I really have to do.  He also provided me with some much-needed help and sent someone I love to brighten up my week.

Times are difficult and we suffer, whether we are good or bad people.  We get annoyed when bad things happen to good people, but it is inevitable, because we are living in a world of sin.  It doesn’t mean that God has abandoned us or that He won’t make a way eventually, because His time is different to ours.

No matter how much I struggle or become frustrated, I have to remember to remain faithful and be patient, because my God is great and He has never let me down before.  He knows just what I need, when I need it, but more than that, He knows what plans He has for my life.