Decline

My Kobe Bryant Heartbreak

Kobe Bryant, one of my favourite basketball players and one of the best to ever play the game, announced that he would retire at the end of the season.  When I read his beautiful, heartfelt letter on The Players’ Tribune, tears filled my eyes and ran down my face.  It was official.  My favourite [male] basketball player was officially coming to the end of his career.

It hurt me to see Kobe suffer from major injury, after major injury, over the past three seasons, especially as his age made it harder for him to fight back.  Kobe’s decline in this current season has broken my heart, as his body continues to break down, preventing him from being the stellar player we all know he is.  Unfortunately, he won’t be going out in a blaze of glory in his final season, but at least he can see that his time is up and I rate him for that.

When I became a basketball fan, Kobe Bryant was the first player that I fell in love with.  In fact, he was one of the main reasons why I became a Lakers fan and why I always will be.  I could see that he wasn’t perfect and had many flaws, but I love him for who he is.  One of the main reasons why I love Kobe is because of his work ethic.  He is tenacious and he will fight to win, carrying the whole team on his back and trying to get them back into a game all on his own.  It didn’t always work, but when it did, it was magic.

Kobe is also resilient, playing through pain and displaying the most unbelievable endurance.  His strength inspires me and sometimes when I work out, I think about what he does to motivate me and push me harder.  I may not be a sportsperson, but I definitely have the ability to push a little harder if he can shoot two free throws with a torn Achilles — that was an amazing moment for me.

Seeing Kobe play for the Lakers and appear in All-Star games has been a constant for me since I started following the NBA, so knowing that he will no longer be a part of that is really sad for me, but time does move on and people get older.  As much as I hate to say it, this is definitely the right time for Kobe to retire, but at least I’ve had the opportunity to see him play and watch him win two of those five championships.  I also got a close glimpse of him in London, after he’d won his second Olympic gold, which is something that I will treasure forever.

I know that this couldn’t have been an easy decision to make for Kobe, as you can see how much he loves the game, which made me love it right along with him.  Basketball is clearly his first love and having to give up your first love must be one of the hardest things to do.  However, Father Time is knocking and Kobe is showing grace by answering the door, so now it is time of us to start waving good-bye.  I just wish this goodbye could have ended in one final playoff run for him.

For now, I have to say thank you Kobe Bryant for the dedication you showed to the game of basketball and providing us with so many great moments.  You will forever be one of my favourite players and one of the best to ever grace the court.

Kobe Bryant

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Breaking My Heart

The way you no longer care about me is breaking my heart.

We were supposed to be friends, we were supposed to be close, we were supposed to have a genuine connection.

When I first met you, we instantly clicked and for me, that doesn’t happen with many people.  We got on great from the start, we were comfortable around each other and we could talk like we’d been friends for ages.  In spite of the age difference, I thought this is someone that I can definitely have a close friendship with.

And a close friend is what you became as we spent more time together.  I actually found myself being able to confide in someone else, after the decline of two of my closest friendships.  You were one of the few people who I confided in and let into my heart, but I won’t be making that mistake again.

You don’t check up on me, you don’t take any notice of me and it’s like you have little interest in talking to me.  You don’t miss me anymore, you no longer want to see me and you are making no effort to meet up.  It feels like you are constantly lying or that the kind words you spoke were lies in the first place.

I just don’t know why you felt the need to say those amazing, sweet things, because I did not ask to hear them and I would feel a lot better if I had never heard them.  I simply don’t understand how you could seem to care so much and truly value me in your life, but then drop me and stop caring at the drop of a hat.  I’m wondering if our friendship ever meant anything to you at all.

You’ve left me heartbroken and that is causing me so much pain, so I am leaving you behind and cutting you out, because I cannot take anymore.  You don’t have to worry, as I’m done trying and I’ve closed the door on you.  I will never stop caring about you or loving you, but I have to do this for me, because you are breaking my heart.