Another Year, Another Reflection

Saturday was my birthday.

Another year of life, an ideal time for reflection.

You see, birthdays aren’t a huge thing for me anymore;

God granting me another year is a blessing,

But the concept of getting older doesn’t seem so appealing.


Turning 21 felt weird,

However, I loved being 22.

Turning 23, though, just doesn’t feel nice,

And it’s like I can see 30 in the distance.


As I get older, it feels like time is running out,

To achieve what I want to achieve.

I want to make a difference, make my mark on the world,

I also want to get married and have a little girl.


In all honesty, I’d love to have been married by 23,

But of course this wasn’t meant to be.

Now I hope to be married by 25,

Having the one standing by my side.


There’s a slight problem with that though,

Because there’s currently no man in my life,

And I continue to wonder whether I’ll find someone worthy,

Or if they’ll even be willing to make me their wife.


A man in my life is not in the forefront of my mind though,

With so many plans for me to put into action.

Although I’d like to be further forward on my checklist,

I’ve done a lot in the past year that I should be proud of.


I’ve learnt to say no and not take every task on board,

I’ve continued writing and moved one of my blogs forward.

I found a way to take my youth platform to the next stage,

And I’ve finally come up with a business idea to put into play.


I visited new places in the world and made new friends,

I saw family I hadn’t seen for years on end.

Slowly but surely, my confidence is continuing to build,

And I’m seeing what I can do in the community I’m in.


There is so much more and for that I am proud,

But this year was definitely not full of good times.

I made mistakes and did not work as hard as I should,

But it’s been a learning process, which is always good.


Although 23 is an age that I’m not really feeling,

I did decide to celebrate my birthday a little bit;

Because I love those special moments with the people I love,

And being with them a little longer makes getting older worthwhile.



Missing the Old Times

As I celebrated the birthday of a friend I’ve grown up with, it was funny to hear many of us say that we missed the old days or wonder how we had all drifted so far apart.

Growing up results in numerous changes, as we all head down different avenues in our life and start doing new things.  Some of us will be more busy than others and some may begin to drift apart, which can lead to broken friendship groups.

However, no matter how far apart or busy we may be, our group will come together to celebrate a birthday, a baby blessing or any other big occasion.  When we need to be there for each other, then we’ll be there for each other and I know that the majority of us will continue that tradition.

One of the best things about being around the huge group of my church friends again was getting jokes and watching their crazy behaviour, which always leaves in me in fits of laughter and then a sore throat.  Being in that upbeat, joyful environment always makes me feel fresh and a lot younger again.

Celebrating with my lifelong friends and reminiscing about old times was definitely the boost I needed and no matter how lonely or strange I may feel, those moments with those people always make me feel good.  I know that they’re going to be a part of my life forever.

Simple Gifts

As you know, I turned 22 last Friday, which was a birthday that I was not looking forward to and didn’t really care about, although I was blessed to see another year.  Nevertheless, this turned out to be one of my most special and meaningful birthdays, possibly because of its simplicity, and I have really embraced being 22.

My day was filled with simple gifts that filled me with emotion and brought big smiles to my face, yet not all of these gifts were of the material kind.  I was a huge fan of the beautiful notebooks that my sister brought me and I was incredibly surprised when an unexpected individual bought me a gorgeous jacket.

Celebrating with my immediate family in the evening was perfection as usual and taking photos with my sister was a lot of fun; however, what touched me most was the small, intimate birthday celebration put on for me at Lives Not Knives.

These are a special set of people who have supported me and encouraged me when I really needed it, and I am extremely thankful for that.  They have created a place for me that makes me feel that I fit there and I love them so much for that.  Seeing that they got me a cake and candles almost made me cry.

The icing on the top of that cake, though, was having my darling Millik come in later, as I’d wanted to talk to him for some time.  Seeing him actually made my day, because he is a special young person who I would like to have in my life and I was glad to see him on my birthday.

Although my birthday was on the Friday, I still felt that I was receiving gifts on the Saturday, because I finally had the opportunity to see my twin after how many months.  My twin is my baby and I adore him, in spite of the misunderstandings between us.  I was so excited to see him and the smile on my face was huge as soon as I set eyes on him.

The people in my life mean a lot to me, especially those closest, so seeing someone who has such a special place in my life after such a long time is one of the greatest gifts of all.  We were able to talk properly and come to some common ground, which was what we needed, but I hope that he does not disappear for this long again.

I’ve told you before that it is the special little things that put some of the biggest smiles on my face and it was no different as I celebrate my birthday.  I really do love and appreciate the people in my life, and I am thankful for the gifts they bring.