Calm

They Helped Me Through TCFT Croydon

In my last post, I mentioned how Tina took the time to speak to me about TCFT Croydon, so it only seemed right to speak about a number of the special people who were involved in making TCFT Croydon 2018 what it was, especially when it all became crazy stressful.

Putting on TCFT Croydon can be a tough, and at times frustrating, process, which I would be unable to get through without particular people around me.  Tina is always there to support and offer her invaluable words of wisdom, but this was not the case on the final Sunday when she was unable to be there and a ton of things went wrong.  It was like a house of cards, collapsing one card after another, taking me out of sorts and unable to fully enjoy the day.

Photo by Peter Ball.

Nevertheless, there were people there who were able to pull me back from the brink and offer a sense of calm.  Darren gave me time to vent, as well as one of his amazing ‘Darren’ pep talks.  Foteini was there to lend a hand in any capacity, which was a true blessing, especially during lunch time.  My new friend Ellie was a great support, stepping in to take the morning warm up and facilitate the theatre segment, as well as being amazingly encouraging.  Liberty did an amazing job of pulling the music together, not giving me any cause for concern and creating a beautiful song.  And then there was Esi.

I’ve enjoyed getting to know Esi more over this year, since initially meeting her at one of my poetry nights last May.  She is a powerful poet and fantastic facilitator, who facilitated the poetry workshops for TCFT Croydon, and then stepped in to work with the visual arts group as well on the final Sunday, after an emergency meant that the visual arts facilitator couldn’t make it.  She got the visual artists to combine poetry with art, and she also worked on a collaborative piece with theatre and music – she was really doing it all.

Most of all, Esi was on hand to give me a pep talk as well, telling me not to be so hard on myself and bring to my attention that I had made a difference in the lives of at least one young person through TCFT Croydon.  She not only encouraged all of the young people and got great work out of them, but she also encouraged me when I needed it most.

Photo by Peter Ball.

TCFT Croydon 2018 got a brilliant kickstart from Lora and Rosie, who led out on the discussion segments on the first Sunday.  I could not have asked for a better pairing, who got exactly what I wanted out of the participants.  Lora also did some amazing work as a theatre facilitator on the following Sunday, which one of the volunteers and participants, John, gained a lot from.

I’m also grateful for the work Cedoux did with the young people who chose visual art, and the work that Alex did with those who chose music.  Cedoux also played a part in laying the foundation of the process with his infamous collaborative arts activity, which is always fun.

I’m extremely grateful for the support of those who were not there on the days, but who made TCFT Croydon possible, including Paula from the Council, Winston from Juvenis and Ruth from Spread The Word – I literally could not have made it happen without them and their generosity.  I’m extremely grateful to Turf Projects, First Floor Space and Theatre on the High Street for providing the workshop spaces.

I am very grateful for all of the volunteers, everyone who provided the lovely food, my mum for helping me to set up and clean, my dad for everything he did throughout the process, my sister for transporting me and to the lovely Glenn (you’ll hear more about him in another post) for being the muscle that helped me carry things.  In fact, I’m grateful to every individual and organisation who was involved and supported TCFT Croydon in any way.

The most important thing about TCFT Croydon is that participants enjoy and gain something from it, which they did, even when I was having a meltdown.  Everyone gave something different to the process, but there were four particular individuals who were ideal participants and made all the stresses of producing this type of project worthwhile.  I’m grateful for them.

All in all, I want to say thank you to everyone who was part of my TCFT Croydon journey in 2018.  I could not have made it happen without you.

Photo by Peter Ball.

Constant Reassurance

It can be difficult trying to get through this life sometimes, with the constant pressures put on you by yourself and others.  You find yourself striving to move forward or trying your hardest to get things done, so you can reach those elusive goals.

Sometimes this can all get too much and your head starts to get overwhelmed, as you find yourself rushing from place to place and task to task.  You barely give yourself a chance to breathe or your mind a chance to rest, and it can be draining.

However, taking some time out with my God always manages to calm me down.  It is the best method of reassurance and relaxation, as I spend time talking to Him, meditating on His word, praising Him in song or just listening to what He has to say.

Yesterday, I decided to take a longer route to the bus stop on my way home, as I felt like a leisurely walk on my own, and I am so glad I did it.  For the first time in a little while, I was casually walking just for the sake of it, rather than pacing in a bid to get home or reach my destination.

During my walk, God came into my mind and I just started having a conversation with Him.  I felt at ease and really happy in that moment, which was exactly what I needed to settle my spirit.  That little bit of time spent with my God just made me feel that everything was going to be okay, which is why time spent with Him is so special.

I’m glad that I have my God on my side, supporting me every step of the way.  It also makes me feel good to know that He will be a constant reassurance, which is important for someone as easily stressed as me.  With Him, everything will work out fine.

He’s Naturally Funny

So this  is another individual that I have not known for a long period of time.  In fact, I have not even known him for a year yet, but I am really happy to call him my friend.

I love funny people and he makes me laugh to no end.  He is not someone who has to try to be funny, but he is just naturally funny in the things that he says and the ways that he says them.  Those are the best kinds of people.  He also walks around like he can’t be asked, which just adds to the humour.

This is someone who I know will be there for me if I’m in trouble, which is so cool, because I haven’t known him for all that long.  We can talk for long periods of time about a number of different subjects, which is the makings of a really good friend.  He also does these annoying little things, which you can do with a friend, but I always get him back.

He took it upon himself to start calling me DaVinci, which is a nickname that I actually love, but he is the only person that I will allow to call me that.  You could say that he has the exclusive.

He is an individual who has the ability to calm me down and make me think things through rationally, which is a great quality.  Did I also mention that he always smells amazing (sorry, I had to get that in there).  He has quickly become one of my favourite guys and that is a lot of the reason why there is a lot of love there.