Round and round,
Not knowing what to think,
What to feel,
Taking me on a roller coaster of emotions.
Riding that roller coaster
Over the past two weeks,
On a journey more special
Than I ever imagined.
Surrounded by friends,
Old and new,
Further developing my extended family,
I was encircled by love,
Filling my heart to the full,
Falling in love with all around me.
In spite of this love,
I felt a sadness,
Pain cutting through my heart
With no way to stop it.
Grief hit me,
A sense of loneliness overtook me,
Feeling hurt by somebody,
Like an outsider around everybody.
Taking some time out,
Some time to recuperate,
I began to heal, smile
Embrace all that was going on around me.
Suddenly, believing love was possible again,
Laying myself bare for all to see,
Gaining a better understanding of who I was,
And what I could really be.
Overcome with sadness to be going home,
But filled with happiness and glee,
It was time for this ride to come to an end,
It had become a little too much for me.
I finished this ride feeling
Like I had at the start,
A little unsure,
A little despondent at heart;
Not looking at some the same way,
Feeling a bond had been broken,
Confused at how I got someone so wrong,
But not surprised, as they are human.
My feelings may have been the same,
But I was different,
Reacting, handling things in a better way,
This emotional roller coaster was truly special,
No one can ever take that away.