All of us want to belong, don’t we? I guess it’s just human nature. We want to feel like we fit in or have a purpose in the world; it all adds to feelings of value and self-worth. However, I’ve never really felt like I belong.
For many years, I’ve felt like I don’t belong in the world. I’m just a random girl, who at times feels invisible and undervalued, wondering exactly why I’m here. I don’t really know where I truly fit, which has had a significant effect on the way I view myself and how I perceive my relationships.
I always seem to feel like the odd one out, who’s trying to find a way to fit in and feel like I’m part of something. Wherever I am, I always seem to be floating around like a dandelion but never really feeling comfortable enough to settle. Yeah, I am a bit of a free spirit and I like being around different groups of people, but I want to feel as if I truly fit when I do stop floating.
I don’t want to be a try-hard, so sometimes I hold back and become more reserved. I prefer to stand out rather than conform, which means that not everyone will like me.
I’ve tried being what and who others want me to be so that I could have some sense of belonging, but it was just too hard. I lost myself in the process and it was killing me emotionally. Now, I’m just me and if people don’t like it, then it’s their loss.
Nevertheless, I would love to finally settle and find my place in the world. Nothing would make me happier, because all I want to is to feel like I really do belong…