Upsetting Mood

I have been put into an upsetting mood; in fact, I am in a really bad mood.  I am fuming.

I don’t like to be put in awkward positions and feel like I am being pulled this way and that, but I seem to find myself in these sort of situations.  I like doing things in a certain way, I like to learn and I don’t like feeling as if I don’t know what I’m doing, which makes me act in a particular way.

I have been stuck in the middle recently and put into a very awkward situation, which I hate.  I feel like I am being attacked and constantly doing the wrong thing, which is what I do not want.  I have gone from annoyed, to confused, to fuming, and now I am just very upset.

I don’t know how I am going to come back from this and I don’t know what to do to make it better.  I have been attacked and scrutinised, but in an indirect manner in front of people.  I would rather be spoken to one-on-one.

I am not in a good mood right and I am feeling upset, but I just need to get myself together and stay strong.  Now I have to dig deep and figure out what to do next.  As my sister said, I can’t keep basing my decisions on other people and what they say.  Hopefully this will all get better.